A couple dates...no kiss

I went on a date on Tuesday night with this guy, J who I have known for almost two years now. I met him at church when I first moved down here but then I stopped going to all of the social events and we didn't keep in touch. Then, I went out with one of my girlfriends last week and he was at the hockey game we went to. He's very shy but his friend told my friend that he has had a crush on me for quite a while. If you're thinking this sounds too much like middle school, I assure you it was very much like middle school, but he called and asked me out the next day so I didn't really care how we got to that point. He took me to downtown Miami to this nice little French restaurant that opened out onto the street. We sat outside and had a nice dinner and glass of wine. The conversation was good, but we were sitting at a little table right across from each other so the eye contact got a little awkward at points. Since it was a Tuesday night, there weren't many people out so we walked around a bit and then decided to go rent Batman since he hadn't seen it yet. We watched it at his place since he has a Blue-Ray player and huge t.v. and I have a little toaster-sized t.v. and no cable. His roommate, who I also kind of know from church came home int he middle of the movie and just like when we had watched a movie Sunday night, he stayed and sat on the other couch and watched the rest of it with us. I didn't mind it at all, but I can't stop thinking that if he had just gone in his room, J may have at least snuggled up next to me a little and maybe tried to grab my hand. Gees, for that matter, I would have if we were still alone! But, I guess it was only the second time we had hung out alone, so I should try to slow things down a bit from the way they've been in my past relationships.

This was actually the first real "date" we had but we had spent all day Sunday together at this outdoor country concert nearby. You may have heard about how Jessica Simpson has gotten really fat lately, and I can personally attest to the fact that she has maybe gained a couple pounds, but good Lord, who hasn't gone up and down a few pounds here and there! I was standing about 20 feet away from her on Sunday and she was still super-cute! She's gorgeous no matter her size or her bad styling advice, but that's where all the bad pics of her came from--the concert I was at. Anyway, we had a blast even though I was sweating most of the time. I guess he didn't care too much since he has called me every day since then.

I just don't know how I feel about him as of now. I mean, I'm kinda lonely so I'll definitely keep hanging out with him but he's very shy and I doubt I'll even get a kiss before a couple more dates unless it comes from me. We've even drank quite a bit every time we've hung out and still, no physical contact. Whatever! My friend warned me that I would probably have to make all the moves because he's so reserved. He's funny and I have a good time when I'm with him, so I'm happy.

What do you think of Jessica??

Stop eating before it's too late!

I've been on my 1200-calorie-a-day diet now for 4 days, and to be honest, it's not that hard. Seriously. I have only worked out with my personal trainer one day so far and I have obviously been way too easy on myself in the past when I do weights because she worked me out for 30 minutes and I couldn't walk for two days afterwards. It's okay, though. I'm thinking by mid-March I will be in semi-bikini-ready shape. It's not like I was obese, but I was definitely not comfortable in my skin at the weight I was. You have to keep in mind that I'm 5'1" and any weight over 105 for me looks bad, and I had gotten up to 120! Anyway, I'm excited about changing my lifestyle the right way, not the way I used to do it; crash dieting with only 4 cups of coffee a day for sustenance. I don't even drink any caffeine now and it helps me NOT have those crazy jitters all the time.

I've had to do something to occupy my time and reward myself for eating well each day so I've reverted to shopping, except I have no money. So, I have been shopping and buying and then inevitably returning almost all of my purchases in the next few days. I've also been seeing a lot of movies, which is good, because seeing those perfect bodies encourages me to keep going with my healthy routine.

Here's one of my latest favorite exercise tips:
Bring along the 2009 Victoria's Secret swimsuit edition mag to the gym and stare at all the pretty bodies and swim-gear while you are on the treadmill or elliptical. Believe me, you will stay on much longer than you would staring at a TV tuned to CNN! Not that Robin isn't gorgeous, but you know, swimsuits, people.

I need to go to IKEA today. I threw away my rotting plant today, finally. It was starting to drip these disgusting juices from its leaves and I had had enough! That was the last living thing in this apartment that I had left. I killed all the other plants long ago. I need to get some more. We'll shoot for them living at least 6 weeks this time.

I think I've gotten up the energy to go to the gym now.

Long time no see

Well, it looks like I'm starting to become one of those terrible bloggers who waits a month (at least) in between blogs. I'll have to add that to my New Year's Resolutions list.

Speaking of which, New Years was good. I went out to this nice resort with friends from my church back home and we played cards, had sparkling cider, and watched the fireworks display at midnight. We only went outside to hear the band and join in the festivities for about an hour around midnight because it was so freaking cold. The wind chill was about 32 degrees, and I know what you northern people are going to say, "I had a wind chill of NEGATIVE SEVEN!" The point is, if I had dressed properly, I would have been fine, but all I had on was jeans, candy-apple red pumps, a sleeveless shirt and pea coat. I was dressed for 60 degree weather, maybe. Anywho, the fireworks were so nice and lasted a long time and they even had a myriad of songs put together to go along with the fireworks so I was bouncing up and down the whole time to the songs. This also helped me stay warm.

Around 12:30 am, when all of the couples started heavily making out on the lawn where we were listening to the band, we decided to go back inside. One of my friends had gotten a condo at the resort so we were going to hang out a bit before fighting the traffic to get back home. When we got back to the steps of the condo building, we heard this horrible fire alarm going off and out comes all of these people from the building. There were quite a few kids and babies, and most importantly, puppies. These poor, poor puppies had been roused from their peaceful slumber to a high-pitched shrieking sound. Luckily, the condo we had had a back porch and was on the first floor, so we snuck around the back where the firemen couldn't see us and we were able to get in through the back door. The alarm went off quickly (apparently this happens every year at this resort; some drunk teenager pulls the fire alarm. idiot.) and we were able to finish our card game in peace.


Now I'm back in South Florida and I had my first class today. It sucks being back in classes. When will it end?? Never. I've resolved myself to the fact that I will be a lifelong student and there is nothing I can do to stop it. She groans. At least my dad said he will try to find me a dog, fully trained, to keep me company and make me get outside some more. I miss my doggie niece so badly already. I spent a lot of time with her when I was home.

Here's just a few New Years Resolutions:
-Get back down to my "fighting weight"
-Lure a man into my web
-Only 1 cookie, not 12
-No more TV. Alas, my cable is now gone, so I SHOULD study more, right??
-The best way to spread Christmas cheer is singing loud for all to hear.
(The last one isn't so much a resolution, as just a way to live for the year)